A month of changes

I cant believe that we are at the end of another month. The end of the first month of this new year actually.

I thought that today i would document some of the changes that have happend over January.

* The biggest one was yesterdays post.
* I am moved out of our house and found myself a flat. I moved in on Sunday and am just finishing unpacking the last few boxes. Hoping to take photos to share on here over the weekend.
* I got to speak to my best friends last night. She called out of the blue, all the way from the U.S and it did me a world of good to just talk and laugh with her. Thank you Rayo
* I received confirmation that i have been accepted to write my Chartered accountancy exams in June
* I have managed to get rid a lot of my junk while moving
* I have also found a nice church which i might start going to.
* I no longer have internet at home. My flat doesnt have a phone line and they want to charge me £125 to put one in. I cant afford that so for the moment i have got no internet connection at home.

Exactly a month

So it has been a month today since Stu and i split up. The past 30 days have been a whirlwind of emotions. So much has happened and so much has changed. It feels like it has been a lot longer than 30 days but at the same time it feels like it was just yesterday that we sat down and had a talk.

Six and a half years together feels like a life time. I miss a lot of things including the simple things like comfort and normality. When you go through something like this you realise what your comfort zone really is. Even though this is difficult for both of us we are trying to stay friends. I know that if i need something i can call him and if he needs anything he can do the same.

This is a journey for me. I am learning to close one chapter of my life and open up another. Some days are ok and i manage to get through them and other days are really really difficult. Today is one of the difficult days.

Part of the healing process for me is documenting. Writing in my diary, doing some work in my art journal, spending time just talking with the Lord. This morning while reading todays devotional they had this prayer as todays prayer:

Dear Father, I give my troubles to you. Please give me the strength and wisdom to trust in Your will. I pray I will react in a way that brings glory to You. Help me to be still and know that you are God. I know You are always with me and I ask for the patience to do things according to Your plan and Your timetable.

In Jesus’ precious name, Amen.

This is exactly what i needed this morning and probably for every morning for many months to come. It is easy to become impatient and to worry - it takes more effort and thought to simply trust. Today i am choosing to take the one that doesnt necessarly feel like the easier option - today i am trusting in Gods plan and his timing.

Today

* I need to get down to the bank before 1pm
* I need to pick up the moving van by 3:30pm
* I need to wash all the bedding
* I am hoping to finish packing everything
* I need to call everyone to change my address details
* I need to write a letter to the Council
* Must remember to post my letter to granny
* Pick up some much needed Shampoo and Conditioner and while i am there pick up some application forms
* Make a trip to the post office to send off an eBay item
* I am feeling the need for some fresh flowers to make things a little more beautiful
* I wish i had my paints out so i could paint - i have so many ideas swimming round my head
* I woke up with a headache

Hope that you have a great weekend everyone. I might be away from blog land for a few days.

All you can do

Some days all that you can do is just hold on. When your heart is breaking, when your dreams and hopes feel shattered. When your tired and feel like giving up against the struggle - sometimes all that you can do is hang on.

“When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.”
—Franklin D. Roosevelt