[ HYC weekly results and a new summer challenge ]

I am so pleased with this weeks weigh in results. As of this morning i am sitting at 262.4 lbs which means that i have lost 2.6 lbs and a grand total of 20.6 lbs. That's one fifth of what i wanted to lose gone! I am so pleased. This means that i get to update my Bling badge to this

My exercise has been a little down this week which has been bothering me a little. Can i just say that the lack of exercise has not been because i didn't want to but more because my feet wouldn't let me. My current running shoes have been hurting me so badly that by the time i get back home i can hardly stand on my right foot. It feels bruised and tender and no matter what i do i just haven't been able to change that. I went out and bought special foam liners - no help. I bought special running socks - no help. So today i decided that if i wanted to keep going with my walking/running - which i definitely want to - then i would have to go and buy myself some new running shoes.

These are what i came home with. My first pair of Asics and my first gel shoe. I'm looking forward to going out for a run a little later today. I will let you all know how i get on with them.

Now onto the Summer Challenge. You can find out all about it here. I have emailed my starting weight and am looking forward to journey to follow.

Have a great week everyone!

[ From my heart ]

I've been rather quiet lately - i know that. I have been doing some healing, going on with life as best that i can. Tonight i have been thinking about when i was a kid and my mom and dad would put me in Time Out when i got out of hand or when i threw tantrums and i have started to realise that that Time Out time was needed for me to regroup. To sort my emotions and my thoughts out before going back into daily life. To get some perspective.

I think that is what i have been doing these past few months. Trying to regroup, trying to find my life path. Sorting out my emotions and my feelings. Getting some perspective.

I cant say that i feel like i have come a long way from a few months back but i can tell you this.....

More and more i am becoming a new person

I am learning to pick up the pieces of my heart and how to put them back together

I am getting some perspective on how dreams can be shattered and in their place new ones can be born

I am learning that i am Strong in so many ways

I think that it is time that i come back to my blog. To my friends who care about me. I think that it is time that i start to live my life the way it was intended to lived.

[ A day trip and an update ]

Wow, has it really been this long since i last posted? I cant believe it. A lot has happened which i guess is why this gap has occurred. So let me fill you in on what has been going on with me.

Last weekend i had a lovely 4 day weekend. On Friday i decided to treat myself. I got in the car and headed up the motorway. I ended up stopping in Newark. A lovely little "seaside town" without the sea. It does have a river though so i guess you could say it is a riverside town. Anyway, it was just what i needed. Some fresh air, lots of walking, some shopping, some thinking and lots and lots of fun!

These photos were taken with my camera phone so some of them are not the best but that's ok

Do you know what else i love? Bumping into friends who you haven't seen in ages! Well, if i am being accurate it was she who bumped into me but we chatted, did a bit of catching up and are going out this weekend. I am really looking forward to it.

I have also started walking 5 days a week. I get up early and walk about 2 miles Monday through to Friday. I am loving it. I have even started to add a LITTLE jogging into the mix. I have a lovely little park near my house and this is where i go every morning. Before i know it i will be running the full 2 miles!

Because of this and because i have been working on eating better i have now lost 15.5 pounds! Wohoo to me.

I have also decided to go back to Uni in October. I no longer feel that accounting is what i want to be doing and in a life that is so short i just feel like i need to be doing something that i am going to love doing. something that will allow me to help other people, to make a difference and that might be a little more suited to me. I am going to get my BSc (honours) Psychology degree.

I am also going to try to get my Indefinite Leave to Remain over the next two months. It is a lot of money but if i can get it before i register for Uni then i will be able to get Financial Aid as well - which will be a big help. Ill also get money towards a new computer which will be great!

That's about it i think - well at least what i can remember at the moment. Hope everyone has a great weekend.