[ I have decided to go with the flow……. ]

I can tell that I am getting older and wiser as they say…..I am trying harder to go with the flow and not get stressed out about things that I can not control. This is no easy task but I am learning that it does make living life that little bit easier.

"So whats flowing?" you ask - let me share………..

* I have only got 7 more working days and then I am off to start my new job.

* I leave for a weeks holiday to Scotland in 3 days and have yet to do any packing.

* I found a flat that I love and want so badly. I put my name and money forward to the agency and am now just waiting for them to come back to me with a "Yes you have been successful and not thrown away £150" or a "No, we don’t want you living in our beautiful flat but thanks for the money". I'm praying and hoping that it’s the first one.

* Oh, and since I am very impatient and REALLY REALLY want this flat I gave my current Landlord his four weeks notice Saturday just gone. Yup, I don’t believe in dipping my toe in the water first - I might as well just jump and figure it out along the way.

* I have been spending a lot of time reading Jennettes book and I am loving every minute of it - she is so funny and so real and so often while she is telling her story I can see me doing or having done the exact same thing

* Because I have given my notice I also started packing up my flat. Well, I guess I should say I have just completely made a huge big mess in the name of packing. Its getting sorted out and organised, honest!

* While sorting and organising I am also finding things that I want to sell or get rid of so I now have a nice big pile of stuff that needs a new home.

* And to go in my nice new beautiful flat I have also decided that I want new bedding and new bedroom furniture. I know that I want colour and personality but more than that I am not really sure. I am thinking something along these lines……

or this

or this

*I have also been given a full grant for my first year of study for my Psychology degree. I have now registered for the first year and can not wait to get started. I am so excited about this course.

[ Look what came ]

I was so excited tonight. I got home from work and look what i found in my post.I bought this book from Amazon after reading Jennette's blog. I can not wait to get my nose into it.

If you could say a little prayer for me tonight and tomorrow i would really appreciate it. I went to go look at a flat this evening and it is so gorgeous. It is exactly what i want, in the area that i want, more or less at the price that i want. The only thing is that they have to do a credit check on me first. Sometimes these come back fine......but sometimes they don't. I guess it just depends which agency they use. Its going to cost me £150 to do this check and if i am declined then i lose my money and the flat. So, after all is said and done, please say a little prayer for me today.

I will keep you updated. Have a beautiful Friday!

[ A lot going on ]

A lot is going on emotionally at the moment so not really in the mood to post what i was going to post. Instead i am going to share two songs that i am loving at the moment.

and then this one

[ The Joys of Food Journals ]

I have never been a fan of writing down what I eat but for the past few weeks I have been making myself do it. It has been one of my weekly/monthly goals so I have been making sure that it is being done.

Last night I realised just how important they are and that all my hard work with them had really paid off. Those of you who have been visiting my blog for a while know how much I have been battling with losing anything on a consistent basis so last night I sat down with my food journal and just had a look through it.

I realised something! Yes, I may be staying within my WW points most days but the food that I have been giving my body still hasn’t been very good food. Don’t get me wrong, there have been some good changes – like now I eat breakfast most days and I have been eating more salad and veg and less bread and rice but what I can see as an ongoing pattern is that I still “spend” a lot of my daily points on rubbish. I just somehow manage to work that rubbish into my food plan.

In one day I have been able to have a mini chocolate roll, a low fat chocolate ice cream, a sour cream dip to go with my carrots, a bag of low fat crisps and even still a small bag of peanuts! And this is on top of my cereal, lunch, dinner and yogurt snack. I understand that I may have a lot more points than smaller people due to my weight but still, I am sure that I should be filling those points with foods that are a lot more nutritious for my body.

During this week I came across this post by Scale Junkie and it really hit home when I realised what exactly I have been putting into my body …. Even if it is classed as low fat!

So today is the start of truly eating healthier, of paying attention to what I put into my body and to try something a little different.

[ My heart is here ]

I so miss New York City.

I was speaking to my friend who is living in Brooklyn at the moment and we were chatting about old times. About how we used to catch the train from Fairfield CT and go down to NYC for the weekend. How we would watch out for those strange people you see on the train and then chat away in Afrikaans so that no one could understand us. How we used to go somewhere different almost every weekend and how we used just agree to go meet strange men off of the internet. I tell you, we had no fear in those days!

Such good times and such good memories. I may not have been born in America much less live there at the moment but let me tell you, my heart is most defiately there.

I love New Yorkers. I love the City, the architecture, the atmosphere and everything else about it.
New York I miss you!

All my photos from my time in the states is currently packed away in boxes so i got the next best thing of of google images.